I don’t know how to firmly start this so here it goes. Call me NOW (Now Overweight Woman). I won’t be posting my name on here for a reason and you’ll find out later.
I’m fat, always have been. Since childhood really. My family is in the southern area and well let’s just say us southerns know how to eat and eat well. But when I was younger I didn’t know you could eat well AND right. To me country ham (Aka just Extremely salty ham) was okay a major food group. And let’s not forget granny’s gravy and mashed potatoes.
Now, I’m not saying that while ones getting older i couldn’t have said no. Because I very easily could have, but I didn’t and that’s My fault and no one else’s.
Bad habits sticks…. And I also love bacon. Who doesn’t now days?
“Anon, why are you posting this why should we care?.”
Simple my friend, because I want to share my weight loss experience with others.
If I can do it anyone can. I know it’s scary taking that first step.
That scary word everyone fears “Diet.”
But I have a even more scary word that is also hurtful “fat.”
Fat fat fat fat fat. I hate that word.
So much I wish I could just take that word and shun it from every human beings lips, forever.
Buttttt!!!! I have a even MORE scary word. “Unhealthy.”
That word terrifies me. Why? Ill tell later.
So anyways I’m doing this blog to show and possibly hopefully help others struggling with this horrible horrible curse.
But I will be blunt threw out the whole thing. The truth hurts trust me I know but it’s sometimes what people need to hear so that they will wake up and see what’s going on.
I’m a hypochondriac, a huge one. The slightest pain or off feeling I have I’m rushing to the hospital.
I also suffer from panic attacks and as I said before depression.
Food became my go to source for comfort. At the time my family wasn’t the best help or comfort. Food was always there. My family also has a habit of eating fast food… A lot..
(I am so sick of Dairy Queen it’s not even funny)
I eat when I’m sad. Had a bad day? Oh hey it’s okay just eat this butter finger and that’ll patch up those wounds like and good for ya! Until I started feeling sad again and I just kept eating eating an eating.
With my panic attacks I found out that if I ate It would help me calm down. Even though the reason I went into a panic attack most of the time was best i thought I was having a heart attack.
Amazing how the mind and body works right?
So trust me when I say I know fear, I know pain and I know depression.
But I’m not here to tell a crappy sap story!
Now onto what opened my eyes.
For years now I’ve been ranting about going on a diet eating healthy and going to the gym. I even went threw with it a time or two. But I quit. Which is a huge habit of mine.
Quitting what I start. From books to diets to jobs and school I quit it all.
Why? Depression, and while depression is a major factor on all this, the eating crap food the quitting and giving up, I’m also one of the laziest humans being there is and ever will be.
I hate exercise, I hate the ache my body’s goes threw after words.
I hate having to do stuff unless it benefits me. I’m selfish I know, and I’m not proud of it.
That’s why in changing all of this.
I’m not saying I’m a bad person, just lazy. I don’t hate me, I’m okay with me. And honestly (this is gonna sound insane) but I’m happy I just fat. I’m happy I can change the fact that I’m fat. I’m not covered in burns and scars (besides stretch marks) and I’m not disabled or anything like that. I’m lucky. So I choose not to hate my body or myself. Cuz I can fix it.
So no more sappy crap lets go on with it!
Today I was in a “bookstore” *coughpornshopcough* with my boyfriend and these two beautiful girls were buying bikinis.
76.50 worth of bikinis actually.
Usually it’s a girls first instinct to automatically go to “omg such skanks.”
“She to ugly to be buying a bikini.”
Or trying to point out their flaws to make ourselves feel better.
I didn’t. I was happy for them, they deserved to be buying those bikinis and rocking them at the beach or pool. And I know for fact they are gonna look amazing in them because simply put, they were sum fines ass ladies.
I would have loved to go with my best friend who is actually gay (but guys can bikinis too right) and buy some bikinis and other summer clothing. But let’s face it. When your big company’s and store don’t make cute clothes in your size. Walmart is the worst store for doing this.
It’s like company’s don’t think bigger woman should have cute clothes.
No, they have to wear grandma panties, plain shirts with that god awful lace stuff around neck and jeans that have no shape to them with elastic. (I call them mom jeans)
Thankfully I am blessed enough to be able to buy clothes from Spencer’s and other stores that do have decent looking items in large sizes.
Back to the story! Also I will be side tracking and ranting like that a lot threw out this so get used to it.
I saw the chicks with the nice tatas and butts buy the cute bikinis and it hit me. I wanna look like that. (And before you go thinking imma correct you right now. No my boyfriend was not looking at these chicks, no that is not why I am going on a diet and oh we’ll if he was looking cuz that’s what guys do.)
Something clicked in me. I don’t dread this diet I look forward to it. I’m gonna hate the exercise but it’ll be worth it and Hopefully grow to love it.
The diet? Drum roll pleaseeee!!!
The military diet! One of the most hardcore diets out there, used by the military forces to get soldiers into shape quick and healthily but not starve them to death.
Thousands of soldiers go on this diet so why can’t I. Trust me I’m not anywhere ready for the armed forces but the point is its safe and it works.
I’m female (if you haven’t figured it out already)
I weigh 275 pounds.
Height is exactly 5”4
and I’m 19 about to be 20 years old.
My BMI is 47.1% and ideal weight is around 123 pounds.
The diet it’s suppose to last three days. Within those 3 days suppose to lose 10 pounds. Then you take a 4 days break. (That doesn’t mean you can go back to eating Taco Bell and chocolate) and then start again for another three days.
(I won’t go into full detail about it, look it up.)
All together 40 pounds A month.
I’m starting April 1st. After Easter cuz well it’s Easter and my boyfriends Mom makes amazing food.
If I stick to this diet for 4 months I will be ready for at least maybe 3 weeks of bikini time. Four months? That’s nothing!
This is going to take a huge amount of will power, strength, determination, and discipline….none of which I have.
But I know with the support of my brother, step dad and boyfriend I can pull threw this.
So check in ill be writing a small bit daily or not depending, an will be posting updates weekly and even pics! Yes, glorious pics. But those will come tomorrow sometime.
Please share this so others can read and learn and hell we can do it all together!
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Tweet this #NOWdiet and spread the word!
Fingers crossed and omg I can’t believe i’m doing this.. -closes eyes-
Sorry for typos they happen. Grammar nazis correct until your hearts content…jerks.
Pics coming soon of my oh so amazing body.
And I’m posting this from a iPhone so forgive me for not having the best looking page.