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I don’t know how to firmly start this so here it goes. Call me NOW (Now Overweight Woman). I won’t be posting my name on here for a reason and you’ll find out later.

I’m fat, always have been. Since childhood really. My family is in the southern area and well let’s just say us southerns know how to eat and eat well. But when I was younger I didn’t know you could eat well AND right. To me country ham (Aka just Extremely salty ham) was okay a major food group. And let’s not forget granny’s gravy and mashed potatoes.

Now, I’m not saying that while ones getting older i couldn’t have said no. Because I very easily could have, but I didn’t and that’s My fault and no one else’s.

Bad habits sticks…. And I also love bacon. Who doesn’t now days?

“Anon, why are you posting this why should we care?.”
Simple my friend, because I want to share my weight loss experience with others.
If I can do it anyone can. I know it’s scary taking that first step.
That scary word everyone fears “Diet.”
But I have a even more scary word that is also hurtful “fat.”

Fat fat fat fat fat. I hate that word.
So much I wish I could just take that word and shun it from every human beings lips, forever.

Buttttt!!!! I have a even MORE scary word. “Unhealthy.”
That word terrifies me. Why? Ill tell later.

So anyways I’m doing this blog to show and possibly hopefully help others struggling with this horrible horrible curse.

But I will be blunt threw out the whole thing. The truth hurts trust me I know but it’s sometimes what people need to hear so that they will wake up and see what’s going on.

Now onto what opened my eyes.
For years now I’ve been ranting about going on a diet eating healthy and going to the gym. I even went threw with it a time or two. But I quit. Which is a huge habit of mine.

Quitting what I start. From books to diets to jobs and school I quit it all.
Why? Depression, and while depression is a major factor on all this, the eating crap food the quitting and giving up, I’m also one of the laziest humans being there is and ever will be.
I hate exercise, I hate the ache my body’s goes threw after words.
I hate having to do stuff unless it benefits me. I’m selfish I know, and I’m not proud of it.

That’s why in changing all of this.
I’m not saying I’m a bad person, just lazy. I don’t hate me, I’m okay with me. And honestly (this is gonna sound insane) but I’m happy I just fat. I’m happy I can change the fact that I’m fat. I’m not covered in burns and scars (besides stretch marks) and I’m not disabled or anything like that. I’m lucky. So I choose not to hate my body or myself. Cuz I can fix it.

So no more sappy crap lets go on with it!

Today I was in a “bookstore” *coughpornshopcough* with my boyfriend and these two beautiful girls were buying bikinis.
76.50 worth of bikinis actually.
Usually it’s a girls first instinct to automatically go to “omg such skanks.”
“She to ugly to be buying a bikini.”
Or trying to point out their flaws to make ourselves feel better.

I didn’t. I was happy for them, they deserved to be buying those bikinis and rocking them at the beach or pool. And I know for fact they are gonna look amazing in them because simply put, they were sum fines ass ladies.

I would have loved to go with my best friend who is actually gay (but guys can bikinis too right) and buy some bikinis and other summer clothing. But let’s face it. When your big company’s and store don’t make cute clothes in your size. Walmart is the worst store for doing this.
It’s like company’s don’t think bigger woman should have cute clothes.
No, they have to wear grandma panties, plain shirts with that god awful lace stuff around neck and jeans that have no shape to them with elastic. (I call them mom jeans)

Thankfully I am blessed enough to be able to buy clothes from Spencer’s and other stores that do have decent looking items in large sizes.

Back to the story! Also I will be side tracking and ranting like that a lot threw out this so get used to it.

I saw the chicks with the nice tatas and butts buy the cute bikinis and it hit me. I wanna look like that. (And before you go thinking imma correct you right now. No my boyfriend was not looking at these chicks, no that is not why I am going on a diet and oh we’ll if he was looking cuz that’s what guys do.)

Something clicked in me. I don’t dread this diet I look forward to it. I’m gonna hate the exercise but it’ll be worth it and Hopefully grow to love it.

The diet? Drum roll pleaseeee!!!

The military diet! One of the most hardcore diets out there, used by the military forces to get soldiers into shape quick and healthily but not starve them to death.

Thousands of soldiers go on this diet so why can’t I. Trust me I’m not anywhere ready for the armed forces but the point is its safe and it works.

The math:
I’m female (if you haven’t figured it out already)
I weigh 275 pounds.
Height is exactly 5”4
and I’m 19 about to be 20 years old.
My BMI is 47.1% and ideal weight is around 123 pounds.